Reflecting on yesterday, my mind fills with a multitude of images and sounds and stories… Children singing, an Israeli tank kicking up dust in the distance, frustration with bureaucracy, flowers in an alley, free Gaza graffiti, destroyed homes, women’s tears, smiles and anger…

I’m writing this from the Marna House Hotel – I decided to move from my homestay to be with more of the delegation and be able to access the internet easier – they have wireless here!! Its becoming an addiction since I have been away! And it is so good to start the day with such lovely messages of support and solidarity from home, to chat with my sister-in-law on facebook about my family, and email my neighbour in Darwin about weed control on my block! It helps to make what I am doing here more real somehow, to feel the connections between this place and home, that we are all living our lives as best we can…
Visiting organisations yesterday, meeting people and going to Jabaliya near the border to see some of the destuction from recent the Israeli assaults gave me some idea though of just how difficult it is to just live a life here.
The group I was with visited five organisations focussed on women and children, with a range of programs from childcare to craft to education to support groups. I can’t begin to describe everything we did and saw – I will just write some glimpses…
A few of the places we visited had classes of primary school children who sang for us. We joined in where we could – causing much amusement when we tried to copy the actions which went with some of the songs. At one of the centres one of our Palestinian support crew translated a song – ‘If I get killed by an Israeli bullet I will go to heaven, it is not worth being a child if we can’t live in Palestine’.

babies in childcare at one of the centres we visited
One of the women’s program centres in Gaza had what we would describe as a women’s support group meeting when we were there. They had a lawyer with them yesterday giving information about divorce law, which apparently is quite good legally, but there is still a lot of cultural barriers to things like custody and property settlements. The women talked to us about the problems the blockade has caused for their families, with no work for their husbands, financial stress and frustration.
Another group of women talked about their children, one woman saying her son had finished school with high grades, but they couldn’t afford for him to go on with his education – even the cost of getting him to school was too much, let alone the tuition fees – and there is no work here, so he is getting depressed and bored and frustrated.
Another group talked about their family members in prison in Israel. Its been over two years since they have been able to go to Israel to visit them. We were told of a man who was imprisoned 16 years ago when his wife was pregnant – his 16 year old son was killed by Israel in January without ever having met his father.
Everywhere we went, women said ‘we just want peace and to be able to live our lives with freedom and justice’. One of the delegation asked a group if they would like to see Hamas and Fatah working together. When the question was translated, there was a general outcry which even without translation was obviously ‘of course!!!”. These women said they want Palestine to be a united and peaceful country that is left alone by Israel.
We also visited one of the most devastated areas, Jabaliya near the northern border. This was really sad and confronting for me, bringing tears and anger. Everywhere we had been driving, we had seen destroyed and damaged buildings, but this area had been wiped out by the Israeli Defence Force (IDF) in the recent attacks, and we heard many stories of injuries and deaths. The area had been occupied by the IDF before it was destroyed.

a family's tent set up beside the ruins of their house in Jabaliya
One story was of a man who was called out of his house by the IDF and brought his daughters out with him as he had been asked to do previously. They were shot – two of them died and the third is still recovering from her injuries.
We met a woman who had gone into labour on January 12 during an Israeli attack. It was hard for them to get an ambulance and she eventually gave birth in the ambulance on the way to hospital. They said ‘as long as one Palestinian woman gives birth, we will lot leave our land – women are the strength of Palestine’.
There were quite a few tents and makeshift homes among the rubble – most people slept elsewhere with families or in rented houses and came back during the day to begin the backbreaking task of clearing the rubble without machinery – using sledgehammers and hands instead. And amongst the rubble people are planting gardens and crops again.

these men were beginning to dismantle a destroyed warehouse
As we walked around the devestated areas we saw a cloud of dust in the distance – and Israeli tank patrolling the border.

the dust in the distance marks the passage of an Israeli tank
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I wanted to upload this before we headed off for the day but there is so much to say – I will finish yesterday and post it before I start on today…
The three groups we had split in to for the day gathered again at the Rehabilitation Centre for the Visually Impaired where artisans had gathered to sell weaving and embroidery to us. There was also food for sale which was a refief as we hadn’t eaten all day. Jess, Danya and I sat in the shade of a tent to eat and some women came and sat with us and one painted henna flowers onto my hand. She was going to put it on the back of my hand but it has too much hair. I never thought of myself as particularly hairy, but they asked me if I wanted to get my hands and arms waxed!! I said ‘la, la, kwiesa’ (no, no, its good) and then showed them my much hairier legs. The reaction was hilarious – she recoiled in shock and they all laughed!! I’m not sure if they understood the feminist statement implied in having hairy legs!!
Our last official meeting for the day was with members of the Parliament. I must admit that at the end of a long day I didn’t take much in. And it was pollie-speak pretty much. I will try to listen to the recording I made and write more of it another time.
We returned to the Marna House Hotel where I sorted out a bed and then met with Amer whose flat I had slept in the night before to go back to his place to pick up my bag. Sounds simple but the Hamas security men have been reluctant to let any of us go anywhere without an escort or official permission from …??? It took a good half hour of negotiation before we managed to get away. The security here has been intrusive, making it hard for people to leave the group to spend time with locals. Apparently the head of UNWRA John Ging likes Codepink too much and has asked them to take good care of us – which they are interpreting as a need to shadow us everywhere… Perhaps that is the reason anyway.
It was finally sorted out however, and I spent time processing my photos and writing and talking and was happy to find my bed about midnight…
Right now the strongest feeling I have is that the people here need to feel that they are not forgotten. All the reading and talking I had done before we got here did not come anywhere near giving me the understanding of life here for ordinary Palestinians.
More soon from today.
Emma
ps: I was also still trying to help get Mai and Nadia in with help from Gael from CodePink. But not luck. They have gone back to Alexandria.
(photos by Emma)